Amarillo Teen Reaches Out To Tommy The Hacker About Being Bullied At School
This week I received a message from one of our Kiss FM listeners wanting to talk about an important issue bullying and teen suicide. This person who I will leave their name confidential was really affected by the Amanda Todd video. As we communicated back and forth about bullying she later asked me if she can share a story with me. I told her sure…
This is what she sent to me:
“I’m sorry if this is a lot to read. But, I need to talk. I guess it started when my father left me when I was little, not really being around anyways. He just came around recently, but not even enough for it to count. It continued after that, because I started getting bullied in Kindergarten, I don’t quite understand how you could be bullied at such a young age, but I remember it. I remembered not wanting my mom to leave me there when she took me to class, and the other kids pushing me down at recess, taking all the toys from me. It continued to happen years after that, all the way up to this day. I used to be confident, I used to believe that I was strong, but… that was before I lost the person who kept me strong, my best friend. Three years ago, my best friend had also been bullied, committed suicide. I was devastated, I didn’t even know how to act with her gone. So, I started starving myself, became depressed, and almost killed myself multiple times during that time. I had lost over 50 pounds, and almost started cutting myself. I never did though. It all stopped for a little while, so I started eating again. Then, one day in class I had heard this boy bragging about how he had taken a dirty picture, and had sent it to this girl. I later found out that that girl was my best friend, so I talked to her about it. She said she didn’t know him, so she wasn’t in trouble, but in my eyes, he was. I happened to know his mom, so I thought I’d just tell her. I told her what he had said about it all, then left. It all seemed okay the rest of the day. But, the next day when I went to school, it was different. I walked in to see people giving me death glares, and whispering about me. I just shook it off, thinking it was nothing. But, as the day went on, I heard a few people yelling ‘snitch’ at me in the hallways. I knew someone had found out that I had told him mother then. I got through the day, only to find the next few even worse. I couldn’t walk the halls, or even be in class without getting death threats, or being called vulgar names. I soon found myself in the councilors office everyday, telling her everything that was happening. The more threats I was getting, the worse I just wanted to end it all. I didn’t understand how everyone could hate me for doing something I thought was right? But, they did. I soon found that the upperclassmen had found out about it, all of them joining in with the other bullies. I stopped eating again, hiding in my teacher’s room during lunch, because I was scared of what they could do to me. I had lost close to 20 pounds then, almost cutting that time. I was so close to checking myself into rehab, because I saw it better than being there. I almost gave up, ending it all. But, I found another option that seemed better for me. I was bullied out of that school, moving to another one in my city. I stayed at that school for six weeks, not making a single friend, but getting bullied there too. I never quite understood why they bullied me, they didn’t even know me? But, I tried my best to shake it off. Then came summer, finally my break from all of it. I grew stronger over the summer, deciding to go back to the same school I left before. Then came the Talent Show, I had been practicing for months, ready to blow them away. I went out on stage, not realizing that the people who had the sound booth, were some of the bullies. I didn’t pay much attention to it, until I started singing. I noticed my microphone was going in and out, and the music kept cutting out. Then came the comments from the crowd. The booed me off stage, yelling out the same things they tormented me with before. I ran off stage, crying in the bathroom for three hours. I had never thought that I’d happen again, but it did. I just fell silent, not talking to anyone, not trying to do anything with anyone. I didn’t see a point anymore. But, I’ve gotten better I guess. I’ll never be the same person as I was before the bullying, but I do see myself as someone stronger than before. I’ve never really told anyone all that before, but it felt good to tell someone, so thank you for listening.”
I would like to let everyone know that this person gave me the consent to share with you guys.
After reading this persons story it really broke my heart and I wanted to cry. Why are people treating other like this. Why is there so much bullying going on? I’ve heard enough of all this bullying going on at schools and homes and something needs to be done. I’ve been hearing about too many stories of people reaching out for help and nothing getting done about it. Bullying sometimes leads to suicide and that’s what WE DON’T WANT! This story that was sent to me not only was a way to reach out to me to listen but it has encouraged me to use radio not only to play music but to send a message. So with that said, coming up on Sunday evening November 4th join Tommy The Hacker & Dallas Chambers as we takeover Kiss Fm to educate our kids about how an important subject…Bullying & Suicide! We will also have guest speakers and counselors on the show ready to talk to kids who are having issues at home or at school. This is one step forward to helping our kids.
I ask one more favor from our Kiss Fm listeners. Please leave a positive message below in the comment box for this person who sent me this message and keep them in your prayers.
This person is not only a Kiss Fm listener but now is my new friend! You know who you are.
Here is a message for you :
“Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.”